Pam tagged me with this meme and the letter “K.” I have to write ten words that begin with that letter and explain what they mean to me.

» Continue Reading

I’m only doing this because so many of you asked for it.  But just remember, you *did* ask for it!

I hate watching myself perform, I’m never happy with my performance. I wonder if professional actors and singers feel the same way? In any case… here it is, 10 minutes of clips from “Take It Outside” as performed at the Burien Little Theater in Burien, WA this past weekend.

Take It Outside Teaser (~26M, WMV) <– Right Click and ‘Save As’ to download and view

I am freakin’ tired people! The Friday night and Saturday night shows went great! I am sooo glad that this is not a full-length musical though, I don’t think I have the energy! Tonight’s show was especially fantastic… full house, great audience, good rythm. It’s really been fun.  We have one more show tomorrow afternoon for Mother’s Day. That one will be a bit of a toss-up.  We could have a good crowd or it could be an empty auditorium. Show goes on either way!

We’ve been videotaping with a fixed camera in the audience, I should get the tape back tomorrow so if it looks good, I may post a few snippets from the show to whet your appetite tomorrow evening. 

This week’s Saturday Photo Scavenger Hunt theme is “celebration.” The theme this week takes on special meaning for me. If you read the past several days posts you’ll discover that my son was hospitalized for emergency care this past week.

It was a close call, but as his doctor said, he “dodged a bullet” on this one. A little luck, a little prayer, and the skillful medical staff at two local hospitals and I am fortunate to be celebrating the fact that he is still with me this weekend. What better way to celebrate than to feature a few photos of him I haven’t previously posted?

» Continue Reading

I sit here at the computer, my son still sleeping. He pretty much went straight to bed when we got home from the hospital and slept until around 9:30pm.  He got up and had a bite to eat, watched “Shaun of the Dead” with me and then went back to sleep… and he’s still sleeping.  I think his ordeal took a lot out of him.

My night wasn’t quite as restful though I did manage to sleep. I kept feeling the need to stand outside his bedroom and listen for the sounds of his breathing. I never considered breathing as music, but at the moment… it warms my soul like no other song.

The good news is that Matt was released from the hospital after undergoing evaluations all day. We are home this evening and he’s out like a light. I won’t be far behind. He’s going to spend a few days with me while we decompress from this and figure out what the future holds. He will be fine, I have faith and confidence in this.

This has thrown a bit of a monkeywrench into my show that opens this weekend, I’m waiting for a call from the director now to discuss options. I’m still ready to go, but I’ve missed two nights of rehearsal this week and will open with only one more dress rehearsal under my belt. This is however, a trivial problem after the events of the last two days. I continue to gain perspective on what is truly important in life.

Thanks for all of your well wishes, they are greatly appreciated.

The foundations of my world were shaken today. I was called out of a meeting this afternoon with news that my 15-year-old son was being transported via ambulance to the hospital. As I type this, he is in ICU at an area children’s hospital. For a variety of reasons, I’m unable to share the details. What I can tell you is that he is expected to come through the experience with no long-lasting physical effects. When he will be released is uncertain at this point.

You will understand, I hope, if I fail to post or respond to e-mails for the immediate future.

I wrote yesterday in a meme that I miss kissing. The degree to which this is true has been a revelation to me. Sometimes, you don’t realize how important something is until you no longer have it.

This photo is from a shoot I did in 2004. The subjects are close friends of mine that I met through theater. I know something of their histories prior to meeting each other. If there were ever two people destined to fall in love and grow old together, it is these two.

I love being around the two of them. This photo really captures the nature of their relationship I think. With them, I am like a moth drawn to flame. I sometimes think I may not experience love again, but just observing them together gives me hope

I suppose I am an emotional vampire of sorts, feeding on their love for each other to sustain the hollow shell of my own life. For now anyway. I’m not sure what to think of that. But I do miss kissing…

Got this from Marianna though it’s been making the rounds of the blogsphere of late. I thought this one was especially difficult…

I AM: a work in progress
I WANT: what most people want I imagine
I WISH: I had someone to share life’s journey with
I HATE: but it’s rare and I make an effort not to
I MISS: kissing… kissing is good
I FEAR: winding up alone
I HEAR: music all around me
I WONDER: how things might have been different
I REGRET: but try to look forward, not back
I AM NOT: what most people would define as “normal”
I DANCE: on two wheels
I SING: but I’m still insecure about it
I CRY: when watching emotional movies, but I try to hide it
I AM NOT ALWAYS: content when I should be
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: crude replicas of what I see in my mind
I WRITE: to clear my mind
I CONFUSE: other people deliberately, sometimes
I NEED: to stop hiding
I SHOULD: find the courage to say how I feel
I START: analyzing things when I should just follow my heart
I FINISH: even when time runs out
I TAG: you!